Fear Of The Future

Good day everyone, let me ramble for some minutes.

I recently got my licence to practice almost 9 months after finishing my degree exams and it was liberating. I received a lot of congratulatory messages and compliments which felt nice but, beneath the happy face full of makeup as I took the oath that day, were thoughts of the future. The realisation that my independent life has started has been there for a while, but now it is stronger.

I have to do a compulsory internship for one year before proceeding for the compulsory youth service which also lasts for a year.

Getting a place for internship isn’t a cake walk and apart from graduating with a good class of degree, knowing someone with the right connections is what really gets your foot in the door. In order words, you have to know someone that knows some, that knows someone that knows the person fixing the names.

It is less than a month after we were handed our licences but the feeling that very soon everyone will find a place and start is nagging and I think about myself.

What does the future hold?

My parents are surely making the necessary calls and everything but the feeling that human beings have the tendency to disappoint is there. What if it takes too long for me to get a place, what will be my excuse?

More than half my classmates feel I already have a dozen places to choose from simply because my parents are health workers and as much as I can, I try to correct the impression before my future helper hears and thinks I don’t need help.

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Due to the unemployment rate in the country, some people do internship 2-3times which further reduces the chances of fresh graduates. It is a punishable offence but I don’t blame them too much. Na condition make crayfish back bend.

It is more annoying because your entire life (professional/education wise) is put on hold.

No internship equals no NYSC which equals no masters in the country, no government job, no freedom to start a private practice etc.

Some people wait a year, two years even up to four years before they get a place. Others do it for free after waiting all these years without finding a place.

Imagine spending 5years in school living off your parents and still working for free for one full year and living off your parents. Not because the facility can’t afford to pay more people. They just won’t take more people because it will reduce the amount of money available for stealing and they are hell bent on overworking the ones they take.

The salary of an intern medical laboratory scientist is approximately #150,000 ($406) per month, but most hospitals do not pay up to this. The range varies and some pay as low as #90,000 ($244) per month. Shenanigans.

It is much better than the #19,800 ($55) per month graduates are paid for NYSC. Although lucky people get extra pay from their place of primary assignment.

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During the induction and oath taking ceremony, it was announced that internship will take a new face as students will be posted to internship approved facilities upon graduation in order to curb the increasing number for frustrated graduates (including pharmacy, optometry, dental, radiography, physiotherapy, and MBBS graduates). But it’s like everything else in the country. The government will sit on the matter untill yours truly.

My extended family used to think immediately after graduation everyone is supposed to go for the national youth service but I had to explain the whole concept of internship to them and I always ended with:

“I am at home because I haven’t been licenced so I can only start when I am given my licence”.

Now that excuse is out the window because they all know I have been inducted.

All these thoughts boggle my mind. My future scares me a lot….

After writing this, I stumbled on a spoken words video on facebook. It made me feel A LOT better. I feel EVERYONE should see it.

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35 Comments Add yours

  1. floatinggold says:

    It’s natural that you are worried about your future. I’m glad you’re feeling better after the video.
    You will end up exactly where you are supposed to be.
    Your parents are making the appropriate calls, and so I’m sure you will be fine.
    Now think of the people who don’t have any connections…
    Good luck! I trust you will be fine.

    Liked by 4 people

    1. Sim says:

      Thankyou for your encouragement.
      I really appreciate

      Liked by 1 person

  2. Nakas says:

    Sister, believe me when I say I feel you. I studied in Ghana and in addition to all you mentioned, I have to do a 7 months training. So it’s 7 months training, then internship, then nysc. I graduated since November and finally, it was in March I got into the 7 months program. Well, my joy is, I’m in and my life is not in some kind of hault. I also pray that the result for the exam after the 7 months training comes out quickly, so I can apply for internship this year.

    Everything you said about internship is true, some I’ve heard from scientist but to be sincere, I’m not bothered or scared. I have committed it all to God and I trust that everything will go according to plan except God wants it otherwise. I’ll say you should just be praying. Things have a way of working out.

    Liked by 4 people

    1. Sim says:

      Ah! 7 months training ke.
      Is Ghana not in West Africa again? These people eh.

      God is control.

      Liked by 1 person

      1. Nakas says:

        They said its to make us know how practice is done in Nigeria. Frankly, it’s not a bad thing, just the extra time. There are things I’ve come to learn within a few weeks.

        Liked by 2 people

      2. Sim says:

        Well then. I’ll take your word for it although I feel those things can be learnt during internship.

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  3. I understand your feelings and the trouble dealing with your family! But, I ALSO know that you’ll definitely find an internship! You’re too smart and awesome to NOT get something! 💖😙🍻

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Sim says:

      Thankyou for your kind words Nicole. I agree with you, I am awesome😂.

      Liked by 1 person

  4. Sweetheart Fear Not for God is with you and will lead you. And as I say You only need one connection – the one with your suprême ultimate father above

    Liked by 2 people

    1. Sim says:

      Amen brother!
      You are right.

      Like

  5. Yes I agree that an awesome opportunity will just fall right in your lap. Sometimes when the things that you want to workout , don’t, it can mean that something 20 times better is heading directly your way. And that video was so inspiring !! Thanks for sharing 💕

    Liked by 3 people

    1. Sim says:

      Amen to that.🙌
      I’m glad it inspired you as it did me.

      Liked by 2 people

  6. It took some of my classmates a year or two to get an internship placement. I’d advice while you wait, you can start locum somewhere as it will help you ease the tension

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Sim says:

      The struggle is real.
      I do locum in my dad’s clinic but he doesn’t pay me. I go when I want.
      Regardless, I am learning and he is paying all my bills so it’s a win-win.
      Thanks for reading dear

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  7. Tamie says:

    I know and understand this ‘fear’, having being in similar shies while waiting for internship (housejob) too.
    Fast forward 7 years and I laugh at the anxiety I gave myself.
    You’ll be fine. You will get a good placement and all things will work together for your good.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Sim says:

      Amen. I pray so too.
      Thankyou for the encouragement.

      Liked by 1 person

  8. You have got nothing to fear. Don’t let fear ruin your happiness and dilute your moment. Just live in the present and give your best. We never know what the future holds. Just the belief that it will be bright too🙂

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Sim says:

      Indeed. A positive mindset helps.
      By the way, your blog is really awesome👏👏

      Liked by 1 person

      1. I am so glad you feel so. Thank you so much. I love your blog too😀

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  9. Girl, you’re on your way, God’s plan for you will not waver. Congrats on everything 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Sim says:

      True. God’s plans are better than my dreams.
      Thanks dear.😊

      Liked by 1 person

  10. jovita says:

    Congrats! You seem very smart so I’ve no doubt you will succes😼

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Sim says:

      Thankyou for your kind words😊
      I really appreciate

      Liked by 1 person

  11. murisopsis says:

    No matter the time or the country – the future is a frightening unknown. The secret is knowing that the future is one nanosecond from being the past. We are fortunate to always exist in the space between the two. No fear – the future will become the past and all will be well. I had an unpaid externship. I learned much and was fortunate to be able to stay with family so I had a bed and food. Everything will work out as long as you strive for success (they say God helps those who help themselves).

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Sim says:

      You put this very well:
      A positive mindset + striving towards the goal=success
      I really appreciate your encouragement.

      Like

  12. Kris says:

    I was inspired by your story, your experiences as you step onto a new path are frightening. Yet, you will be ok.

    I have tears from the video you shared. I needed this. I always feel like God’s the babysitter on the phone. I have no clue what the next hours will be like, I can only wait.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Sim says:

      I am glad that this inspired you and even more so that I resisted the urge to not post the video because I felt no one will be interested in seeing it.

      Liked by 1 person

    1. Sim says:

      Thankyou very much for the nomination.
      I’ll look at it later.

      Like

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    Liked by 1 person

    1. Sim says:

      Thank you very much!😊
      I’ll reply soon.

      Liked by 1 person

      1. saranya says:

        Welcome 😊

        Liked by 1 person

  14. gaillovesgod says:

    Praying God send you His perfect place for you! He knows where He wants you, and cars about your needs, as well as your heart’s desires! He loves you!
    ” For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.”
    – Jeremiah 29:11

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Sim says:

      Amen. I really needed to read this right about now.
      ThankGod for using you.

      Like

      1. gaillovesgod says:

        Praise His Holy and omniscient name! ❤

        Liked by 1 person

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